|Me (in the black visor) just after crossing the finish line at the 15K. UGH!|
So, a few days after running the 15k, my legs were sore and my ankles were hurting again. I decided to go to track practice that following Tuesday and actually felt great! My legs were still tight from not running in a month and then forcing them to run at a faster pace than I'm use to at the race. Either way, one thing I had to think about..."Am I going to be able to run the half-marathon I'm scheduled to run this weekend?" I decided to give myself until that Friday to decide and run during the week.
My friends and I went running Thursday night (March 10) and I could only handle running 4 miles. Reality told me there would be NO half-marathon race this Sunday. BUMMER!!! And then I had to give myself a reality check...you know, I started to wonder if I would be able to run a marathon in a few months, or what this year would look like for me and my racing schedule. I don't want to be injured anymore! I want to trade in my ankles for a new pair....heck, they give people hip replacements, so why can't I ask my doctor for ankle replacements. At least after that, I would be slightly bionic and could run "normal" again (sigh). And then, I had to tell myself the truth. The truth that I haven't been icing my ankles everyday, or doing the therapy my PT showed me for my ankles, let alone work on my ankles at least 3-5 times a day. And "easing" into running again DOES NOT involve running a 15k all out your first time back. Not the best moves, but time to learn from my mistakes and deal with reality.
So, I didn't run my scheduled half-marathon this past Sunday. I went to track practice last night and have decided to run at a slower pace (almost 2 minutes slower) than what I'm use to. Walk breaks are a must even if I feel good. Time to check my running ego at the door and forego the pace I've been training at 'before my injury' because right now I need to focus on properly healing my ankles and that involves gradually getting back into running. There, I said it. "Hi, my name is MJ and I no longer run the way I use to. I am a runner recovering from an injury and I need to run conservatively. There will always be races, but I only have one body to live with for the rest of my life so I better listen to it and give it some TLC." I won't lie though, a little piece of me thinks it sucks that I'm not where I planned to be in my training schedule, but not everything happens the way we plan.